The Definition of Disgruntled

Kay, so I know I haven’t posted in a long time, and I was hoping to come back with a brilliant and glorious tale to change the way the human mind thinks, thus making me revered and celebrated the whole world over, thus making me rich both in personal satisfaction and monetary wealth.

BUT. That didn’t happen.

So, I will rant instead.

So at work, we’ve been told that we were going to move offices every week for the last 2 months. Every week we were told, and every week it was delayed. So I suppose I stopped paying attention after a while.
Anyways, last Friday at like 10:30am, me and my project team get an email from our oh so competent (as IF) office administrator, telling us to pack up cuz our crap was being moved on Saturday. Gee, thx for the notice.
So we all end up staying late Friday afternoon getting our offices packed up and our computer equipment ready to go. We’re told to go to the new building Monday morning and everything would be set up and ready to go.
Sounds easy enough.

Well, it didn’t turn out that way in the least.

I was the first one in yesterday morning, and because our card keys weren't programmed to let us in yet, I was locked out for almost 45 minutes. I had to call the office admin. to walk all the way over here (20 minutes from our old office) and let me in.
So I get in, and there’s literally garbage, construction scraps, and dust everywhere. I go to my new “office”, and first find that it’s an effen cubicle (dear gawd not again), RIGHT beside the reception area (holy LOUD, many distractions), our computers were plopped down hastily on top of our desks. Not plugged in, no network cables, no power bars, NA-DA.
Sweet. Keep it coming.

So after spending a couple hours setting up and unpacking, it becomes evident that no office supplies are here or coming in the near future.
So of course they ask me and the only other girl on the team to head back to the old office and pick up a basic set of supplies to hold everyone over. 20 minutes there, 20 minutes back, arms fully loaded.

Get back to the new office, and am thirsty as eff. Go to the kitchen, no cups. No matter, cuz there’s no water cooler either. Yes!

I figure I should take a pee break. I go to the women’s washroom, and find it’s locked. Rawk on.
I call the office admin and ask her to find out wtf about the bathroom, and she never returns my call. I go down to security myself, and tell them we need keys for the women’s facilities here, and dude gives me two.
Anyways, at least we can pee now.
Try out the new keys to get in, and yep they work, but holy effen GROSS in there. Christ almighty I’m ready to blow my lid soon!
Go down to the store on the corner and pick up Lysol scrubbing wipes. Come back and start scrubbing that biatch so it’s somewhat user friendly.

Finally get back to my desk, and there’s literally a line up of guys asking me where’s this, what’s that, I need this, we need that.
Kay, last time I checked, my job description did not outline office bitch duties of any kind.
This is getting ridiculous.
I’ve got emails coming out my ass, my phone message light is blinking up a storm, which doesn’t matter cuz I can’t retrieve them yet anyways, and I’ve got people grumbling at ME about the whole sitch.
Hey man, last time I checked, it sucked for me in here too. Don’t preach to the preacher.

Things sorta settle down, the phones get fixed, the computers are up and running.
We don’t have a printer or a photocopier though. That’s coming “sometime”. Excellent.
For now, we can use the one on the floor above us, which has been idling an error message since yesterday at 9:44 am.
Effen rights.

We don’t have a secretary in the works, cuz the one they had in mind was pissed that she wasn’t invited to the kick-off meetings so said eff you to the PM. I am the closest to the reception area. In a 6 by 6 cube no less.
See where this is going?
Every 5-6 minutes I am interrupted with questions, complaints, orders, people at the door.

First thing this morning for instance, first one in again, and I hear a "HAAA-ROOOW, HAA-ROOW!" coming from the front door. It's the corporate express guy with 61 effen boxes of supplies for the initial office setup.
Well no one else is here, so I have to sign for all this crap, whether it was all of what was ordered or not. Then, I have to unpack the shit and put it all away. Awesome.

Then the Venezuelans arrive to take residence in their offices, and there's no computers ready for them, no phones, nothing. So I am standing there like a fool all "uuuhhhh, we just moved in, so...". Kick ass.

The rest of today has been in update meetings, where I've had nothing to update cuz I've been busy with all this other crap. And the PM is like "don't let them on to the fact that we're underprepared, we'll get it sorted out."
Whatever you say boss. Makes it a bit difficult to answer the questions they direct at me in the meetings though. I'm perfecting the art of talking out of my ass for crying in the sink.

This is effen BS. It’s only Tuesday and I am totally ready to call it a week.

And there. THAT’S MY UPDATE.

Duuuuhhhhhh...

The current lack of posts/updates on my blog is proudly brought to you by:

For serious. I feel like I have a brain cloud latley. (Maybe it's the fact that work is getting really awesome at sucking my soul).

Anyhoo, my apologies dear readers - until this lifts, I will be unable to provide your daily CC fix.

Them's the breaks.

Hope everyone else's creative juices are flowing alot more freely than mine right now out there in blog land. Seems mine are down to barely a trickle...

I'm sure I'll be back soon enough.

iPhone!

This thing is pure sex.

I can't effen wait until they are available in Canada. Woot!

All the glorious details here.

Did They Stick You In here Cuz You Weren't Working Right?

I took one of those online tests on personality disorders this morning for kicks, and here are the results I got:

Disorder Rating

Paranoid Disorder: Low

Schizoid Disorder: Moderate

Schizotypal Disorder: Low

Antisocial Disorder: Low

Borderline Disorder: Moderate

Histrionic Disorder: Low

Narcissistic Disorder: Moderate

Avoidant Disorder: Low

Dependent Disorder: Low

Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder: High

-Personality Disorder Test - Take It! -

Well, I'm glad to know that I'm not a raving lunatic or anything like that, but obviously the moderate and high ratings were of concern initially.

The schizoid rating and definition:

People with schizoid personality disorder avoid relationships and do not show much emotion. Unlike avoidants, schizoids genuinely prefer to be alone and do not secretly wish for popularity. They tend to seek jobs that require little social contact. Their social skills are often weak and they do not show a need for attention or acceptance. They are perceived by others as humorless and distant and often are termed "loners."

also:

- Weak interpersonal skills
- Difficulty expressing anger, even when provoked

- Loner" mentality; avoidance of social situations
- Appear to others as remote, aloof, and unengaged
- Low sexual desire
- Unresponsive to praise or criticism

Hmm. Not sure about this one.

- I agree that I don't seek or respond well to exclusive attention or praise for the things I do.
- I don't agree that I have weak interpersonal skills. I am rather social and team oriented for the most part.

- My sex drive is certainly not low.

- I do like working independently, but find it's mainly during times when there is a deadline or where there is conflict within the team; hindering progress.

The borderline rating and definition:

Borderline personality disorder is characterized by mood instability and poor self-image. People with this disorder are prone to constant mood swings and bouts of anger. Often, they will take their anger out on themselves, causing injury to their own body. Suicidal threats and actions are not uncommon. Borderlines think in very black and white terms and often form intense, conflict-ridden relationships. They are quick to anger when their expectations are not met.

also:

- Self-injury or attempted suicide
- Strong feelings of anger, anxiety, or depression that last for several hours
- Impulsive behavior
- Drug or alcohol abuse
- Feelings of low self-worth
- Unstable relationships with friends, family, and boyfriends/girlfriends

Well holy hell who knew?? Jaaayzus.

This does not ring very true with me in most respects.

- I think I live pretty much in the grey area of life, although I consider the blacks and whites of any situation.

- I have dabbled in drugs in the past, and understand that I have an addictive tendency, so have curbed most all drug use for quite some time now. Ciggies and drinks though? Hell to the yes. The last two legal drugs. Those are my long term vices, and find it hard to quit them both completley.

- I was suicidal in my late teen years, but have never really fallen back into that way of thinking.

- I think most of my realtionships are pretty stable.

- I do have mood swings, and can be easily angered at times out of frustration. I don't think it's out of control though.

I could be wrong.

The Narcissistic rating and definition:

Narcissistic personality disorder is characterized by self-centeredness. Like histrionic disorder, people with this disorder seek attention and praise. They exaggerate their achievements, expecting others to recongize them as being superior. They tend to be choosy about picking friends, since they believe that not just anyone is worthy of being their friend. Narcissists tend to make good first impressions, yet have difficulty maintaining long-lasting relationships. They are generally uninterested in the feelings of others and may take advantage of them.

also:

- Requires excessive praise and admiration
- Takes advantage of others
- Grandiose sense of self-importance
- Lack of empathy
- Lying, to self and others
- Obsessed with fantasies of fame, power, or beauty

LMAOOOOOO is all I gotta say.

- Kay first of all AS IF.

- Secondly, how can I require praise and admiration if my "schizoid" tendencies tell me I am unresposive to praise and do not seek acceptance or attention? Contradict much? Holaaay.

- lolololololol @ "obsessed with fantasies of fame, power, and beauty. Yep, that's me allright. Jeesh.

- Takes advantage of others, lying, lack of empathy??? I am at a loss for words. Except lolololol.

The Obsessive-Compulsive rating and definition:

While Obsessive-Compulsive personality disorder (OCDP) sounds similar in name to obsessive-compulsive anxiety disorder, the two are markedly different disorders. People with obsessive-compulsive personality disorder are overly focused on orderliness and perfection. Their need to do everything "right" often interferes with their productivity. They tend to get caught up in the details and miss the bigger picture. They set unreasonably high standards for themselves and others, and tend to be very critical of others when they do not live up to these high standards. They avoid working in teams, believing others to be too careless or incompetent. They avoid making decisions because they fear making mistakes and are rarely generous with their time or money. They often have difficulty expressing emotion.

also:

- Need for perfection and excessive discipline
- Preoccupation with orderliness
- Inflexibility
- Lack of generosity
- Hyper-focus on details and rules
- Excessive devotion to work

Now this one I definatley agree with! OCD to the tits for this woman!

- I am absolutley obsessed with order, organization, diligence, hard work, discipline, and high standards.

- I am stubborn and often inflexible. Which pisses people off, which I am ok with ;)

- Devoted 110% to my career.

- I agree that although I like the team dynamic at work, I often prefer to do things I am well experienced with on my own to get them done correctly and quickly. I don't have a lot of faith in other people's input or output, I'll admit it. Years of experiencing problems with attitudes, laziness, and outright defiance have contributed to me thinking this way though, that's for sure.

- Very, very, very detail oriented. I go over everything with a fine tooth comb. And a Lysol disinfectant wipe.

- I ENJOY making decisions, so I don't agree with that point.

- I am very generous with both my time and my money, almost too much at times, so I don't agree with that point either.

And there you have it.

Me, disected by an online personality test and posted for all the world to see. Huzzah!

I don't know what kind of credibilty these types of sites have, or where they get their source data for diagnosis, but I say go for it anyways.

Take the test and see what it has to say.

I think we can all identify with some of the points in every category.

But I certainly wouldn't take it to heart too much if you don't identify very much with all of the personality traits generated by the questionnare.

Perhaps it will give you some insight, perhaps not.

It's just a silly little www quiz afterall.

Back to Liiiife, Back to Reality

Happy New Year folks!

I hope you all had a great time over the holiday and enjoyed the people that mean the most to you - cuz after all the excitement is over, the gifts are unwrapped, the meals prepared and eaten, that’s what really matters most I reckon.

I had a pretty good Christmas break.

I got to visit family - both my own and my extended family (Sandy’s side), enjoyed some great home cooking, consumed a fair share of rum and eggnog, slept in everyday, and got some much needed rest.
It was nice to have the time off, even though the time absolutely flew by with catching up on chores and visits with friends we hadn’t seen in a long time.

I am most excited to report that I got a super sweet acoustic guitar from Sandy for Christmas - that was a surprise that had me speechless for at least a half an hour.
I haven’t had much time to play around with it yet, but plan to learn how to play this year. I’ve picked up some beginners guides to reading guitar tabs, but really get the feeling that I will learn mostly by listening and figuring out the chords by ear. I’ve never been able to read music, so that’s all rather confusing to me.
Yep - I think that a few local lessons and just strumming and practicing picking up notes by ear in my spare time will be the ticket.
I’m looking forward to it.

Anyways, like I said it’s back to the grind, and I’m actually kind of happy all of the excitement is over with for another year.
Don’t get me wrong - I love Christmas and New Year’s, but the more hectic it’s become over the years, the more it seems kind of…excessive?

No.

Stressful.

Yes, stressful.

So I’ve decided that next year, I’m going to spend my holiday break in Mexico.

Seriously.

It’s time to start doing these kinds of trips and actually getting away for a break.
Getting bogged down with the day to day obligations in life and the ever dwindling personal time we have after our work and social demands are taken care of, leaves what precious holiday time we do have packed full of the things we didn’t get done when we didn’t have the time.
Whoa.
Did that even make sense? The old noggin is a bit rusty after 10 days of little thinking, miniscule amounts of reading, zero writing, and zero painting.

I guess my point is we have to get Away to GET AWAY. Like to a place where we are forced to relax and enjoy ourselves simply because we’ve removed ourselves from our regular surroundings.
Well, it’s a theory at any rate.
Only way to find out if it’s true is to go and do it. So that’s the plan for next year kids.

In completely unrelated news, it’s Sandy’s birthday on Thursday.
I know right? Right after Christmas. What a jip for her. I feel sorry for all of the late December/early January babies out there - the last thing ppl usually want to do after Christmas is go shopping or party any more.
But a birthday is an important day in life, and therefore should be celebrated no matter what day of the year you were born.

As Sandy is quite into photography (or used to be I should say, in her younger days), I got her a 7.1 mega pixel Olympus digital SLR camera, 512mb Memory stick, and carrying case for her birthday.

I think she’ll like it. It’s more for photography than day to day shots, and can be accessorized with numerous conversion lenses for different types of image capture/effects.
I hope she'll like it. Actually, I think she will. I think she’ll love it.

Woot!

Her mother is coming into town on her birthday and I won't see much of her, so we’ll be celebrating together tomorrow night instead. I am ordering a shit load of sushi from Sakanna Grill for us, having a nice bottle of wine ready, and giving her her gift.
Quiet, simple, but I think it will be a nice evening.

Lastly - I am trying to quit smoking for good. Again. I’ve tried on many occasions before, and have always seemed to relapse at one point or another.
It’s not going too badly.
So far I am 18 hours, 9 minutes, 2 seconds smoke free, have NOT smoked 12 cigarettes, have saved 2 hours of my life, and saved $7.04 - according to quitnet.com.
I’ve had a few cravings today, but am seemingly okay managing them drinking lots of cold water.
We’ll see if it gets much worse. They say the first 3 days is the worst in terms of physical symptoms (it takes 72 hours for your body to be completely nicotine free). After that, it’s pure will power. I think everyone is individual though, and it will differ from person to person.

I hope all goes fairly easily this time, and I can kick this old habit for good!